January 24, 2005 | 11:56 p.m.
<- Sleep tests, Vegas trips and you know ->

Yeah, so apparently I'm SO out of the loop, I didn't even know my diary was unfindable due to the system upgrade or whatever. I spend EVERY day reading diaries, and I don't even check on mine. Whatev.

Let's see, what has happened???

I went and had a sleep study, so they could finally officially diagnose my horrendous sleep apnea. It was an interesting experience. First of all, my instructions were to show up with freshly washed hair, no product on it, no makeup and loose clothing. I'm sure I've mentioned before how fugly I am without the proper beauty accoutrements. So, add to this I'm wearing big baggy jammies and I just waltz on in to the building carrying my pillow rarin to go. Poor guy that was "studying" me, this is his first and ONLY impression of me. How sad is that. Anywho, he was nice, took 30 minutes to hook me up to more wires and monitors than the NASA space station. By the time I was wired and ready to go it was 10:00 p.m. Now, I was under the impression that I could read or watch TV or do whatever to relax. No, not so much. The guy just turned the light off and said, have a nice night. People, I go to bed at 1 or 2 a.m. ALWAYS. It was TEN O'CLOCK at night, and that my friends might as well be 6:00 p.m. The dumb thing is, IF I was just hanging out on my own, I could fall asleep no problem, however, because I was being FORCED to sleep, I couldn't. I swear it felt like the LONGEST most restless, awful night of non sleep EVER! After what seemed like hours, and I could handle my bladder pain no more I told the man I needed to pee. He came in, unhooked my bundle of wires and handed me the "power box" and sent me to the toity. I looked at my watch, and let's just GUESS what time it was? Yeah, it was 11:00 p.m. ONE HOUR folks, that was IT!!! So, now I'm standing in the bathroom unsure how to maneuver with all these wires and electrodes and me. I gingerly dropped my pants and then worked the undies, because I had wires down my leg, and then I set the box down on the handicap handrail and hoped for the best. The worst part was, I had an electrode hooked to my finger monitoring heartbeat, and it was the hand that needed to do the wiping. Needless to say, it was Awkward. Somehow I managed and then it was time to redress without dropping the box o' wires into the toilet, and then try to wash my electronics covered hand. When all was said and done, I was making pacts with God that if he'd just let me get through the night without bladder pains and needs to pee, I'd dedicate my first born to him. All I knew was, I couldn't go through THAT again. So, I shuffled back to the bedroom, sleep watcher man came in and hooked me back up and I was off again into fitful slumber. I just know I failed my sleep apnea test, because I never freaking slept. At 1:30 a.m. he came in and said it was time to put me on the c-pap machine and asked if I wanted to go to the bathroom. I pondered upon it and STUPIDLY decided to go. So, it was a repeat of the first time, minus the pacts with God. I got back in the room and he proceeded to attach this large mask to my face and strap it around my head. NOw, I know what you're thinking...UNCOMFORTABLE! Surprisingly, it wasn't so bad. So, from 1:30 to 5:30 I "slept" with the maching pushing air into my nose. It was fine, except for the times I had coughing attacks and felt like I was suffocating. Other than that, it was great. At 5:30 I was awoken and told to go home. The guy unhooked me from it all, had me sign some papers, gave me some apple juice and a breakfast bar and said buh bye. It was PITCH black outside and I was walking ALONE out of this big office building to an empty parking lot. It was MORE than creepy to me. You'll be relieved to know I made it home safely and promptly went to sleep until around 10:00 a.m. So, the results should be in to my doctor this week. I made an appointment for Friday to go over them, and HOPEFULLY get myself a c-pap machine and start sleeping for real again!!!!!!

Also this month, took a last minute trip to Vegas with Tracer, Jer and our friend Carsoni. Jer and Car were going to audition for a show in Utah that I sincerely hope they don't make. I'm sorry, but it'd be SIX months apart from me, NOT good enough pay to make it worth it, AND no insurance. I fail to see how this is a good idea. I leave it in the Lords hands, 'cause he knows what is best, and i certainly hope my husband cares enough to truly find out what would be in the best interest of us. But anyway, it was a drive up on Thursday afternoon and drive back Friday evening. We rented a car and our friend runs an Enterprise. He hooked us up PHAT with a Chrysler 300M. Now, these are very pretty cars, and peppy to drive as well, however, they are NOT, I repeat NOT comfortable to travel in AT ALL! The drive up was fun enough, I snoozed here and there, there was some tense moments with Carsoni (he needs LOTS of special attention) and a few stops for potty, but other than that, uneventful. We pulled into Vegas around 9:30 p.m., went to Ceasers Palace, got our room, spruced up and then headed out for dinner and slot machines. Here's the sucky suckerton part. As SOON as we get to Vegas, I start having cramps from HELL. Cramps I haven't felt in YEARS! My ovaries were pissed and they wanted me to know. So, I'm in excruciating pain, I'm pouring forth you know, and I"m NOT well prepared. I felt bad for my travel friends, 'cause they had to listen to me moan about it. Oh, and staying at Ceasers....Trace! That girl is ALL ABOUT enjoying the fine things in life. So, when she said she'd come, she said we HAD to stay in a hotel. The room was really nice, but the bathroom was even better. It had a HUGE jet tub, big enough for my super sized keister, a huge seperate shower, a huge open getting ready area and a totally seperate large toilet room, WITH a phone and a pad of paper I might add. So yeah, that was enjoyable. Ok, so we head out for dinner. As we all know, walkling distances for me is not fun, I'm fat and have bad hips, but I manage. Well, add to this cramps administered by satans little helpers and it was UGLY. Somehow I made it to the Cheesecake Factory and we had a lovely little dinner. After that we wandered back to the casino and I promptly won 15 bucks on the nickel slots. Ok, that's nothing, except I had only played about a dollar at that point. So, I cashed out and found a bathroom. After the bathroom I tried my hand at dollar slots. I REALLY needed to win the freaking million dollars, was that so much to ask? But alas, no million in my future, in fact, no NOTHING for me! Jer and I won a big fat nothing. Carsoni however won about 150 bucks. Boo hoo! So, after a couple hours we were all tired and headed back to the room. Jer has an obsession with large bathtubs, so he immediately headed for the tub. I went in a little later and we made googly faces at eachother across the bathroom. HEE HEE Anyway, he got out, I got in, 'cause nothing feels better on crampiness than a soothing bath. So, I sat in there forever! In fact, I fell asleep in the tub and there I slept until 4 a.m. No, I kid you not, I slept in the tub for 2 hours. I'm a winner, I tell ya. By the time I got out, dried off, cleaned up and in bed, everyone else was LONG gone. Ok, next day, we got up, got ready, Trace ordered room service for all, and it was good. The difference between Trace and I is...well ok there are A LOT of differences. But, she does NOT stress about money, to her, it's there to spend and enjoy. I WORRY about it always. So, I think even if I DID have money, I wouldn't spend it on the FIVE dollar glass of orange juice! HELLO! Nonetheless, the breakfast was grand, we finished, cleand out the room and checked out. Took the boys to their audition and then Trace and I headed for the nearest drug store. It was time to buy the big guns for this hellacious visit from Aunt Flo. So, whilst I purchased said guns and headed to the bathroom, Trace decides to play the video poker at the front of the store. She sat down and promptly won 50 bucks. Good times! When I was finished, we got ourselves a little Thrifty ice cream and headed to get the boys. Well, their auditions went REALLy well, and they were asked to stay. So, we ended up staying outside for like an hour and a half waiting. I took a nap, Trace played games on her phone. yeah, this is getting long and drawn out. So, guys came out, we went to the Strasosphere so Trace could play her Betty Boop slots, hung out there, then headed out of town. Stopped and had some Olive Garden for dinner, had a kick ass waiter who LOVED us, and then hit the road. We got a MUCH later start than planned and didn't end up getting home until 2:30 a.m. Needless to say, we were TIRED! But it was all good.

My birthday is Sunday, I'm not really all that thrilled with the prospect. I will be 32 years old. That just feels and sounds so very old. And I only say it feels and sounds old because I don't have any children yet, and I don't know when or if I WILL have children. All my friends have like 9 and 10 year old children and have 5 kids and real lives. I still feel like I'm living make believe with all my playing and free time. Sigh, I just hate getting old.

It got really hot here the past couple weeks, NOT A FAN! I really need my cold winter weather to come back, 'cause this 78 degree crap is not cutting it.

I saw "In Good Company" I'm not sure I really liked it. It made me cry a lot, but then again, that could be because I don't feel like I'm in a very good emotional place right now. I feel like maybe I'm a little depressed, but I don't know. All I'm saying is, I didn't like the resolution of the movie, and I didn't like how many people had to get fired. But, I do really love Topher Grace. I think he's adorable, and just so fun to watch. Scarlett Johannsen is really pretty to watch on screen, but I can't take her wierd throaty voice, it BUGS!!

My Amazing Race is moving along quite nicely. There were raucious shouts of joy when the evil Jonathan and Victoria were FINALLY eliminated! THANK YOU!!! Now, I'm down to worrying profusely that my beloved Kris and John will stumble and get eliminated. I would be oh so sad if that happened. But, they ARE really strong, so I'll keep the good thought for them. I'm ready for Freddy and Kendra to go bye bye, that woman is a shallow, vapid bitch and I can't take her. Then, I'd love to see Adam GO!! I like his partner, but she's saddled with him. I want the final three to be Lori and Bolo, they crack me up, Kris and John, MY FAVORITE and Aaron and Hayden. Even though Hayden has become quite bitchy and controlling, I still like Aaron a lot and I liek THEM better than Adam and Rebecca. So yeah, that's my take on the race. I love it so. And for all you Race lovers, Amazing Race 7 is set to start March 1. Aaaaah, thank you CBS for not making me wait to long.

Jer filmed a Toyota commercial and we've actually seen it a couple times now. Can I even say how bizarre and somewhat surreal it is to be sitting there watching the telly and all the sudden your husband appears onscreen. It's fun, and funner yet is all the calls and e-mails he gets from excited people saying they just saw the commercial. Now, if he could just book a few more of those bad boys, we'd be doin well.

There is some iffyness and questions on the gastric surgery. I don't want to talk about it, 'cause it'll make me cry. Suffice it to say, looks like I"ll have to deal with damn insurance instead of just going the cash route, which to me makes no sense. If someone says they'll pay for it, then insists you find out what insurance covers and make insurance pay for it, then they're not really paying for it themselves now are they? I really HOPED to avoid having to deal with insurance and qualifying and, blah, blah, blah. But, as for now, no such luck.

Read a couple of books, "The Lovely Bones" and "Lucky" both by Alice Sebold. I highly reccommend both of these books. Quite interesting reading, if I do say so myself. We had book club meeting about it last night, it was really fun. Now, our next book is "The Bartimeus Trilogy" my sister highly reccommended it, so I'm intrigued to see what it's all about. I realized that I have NOT read all that many books, and I need to get on it. I USED to read a TON, but I stopped being a reader after my mission. The time has come to start reading again!

Ok, hottmegani97 just tried to IM me with some porno news I'm sure. I HATE stupid people and their stupid ploys to get people to look at their naked bodies, or whatever disgusting things they want. Have I mentioned how much PORN pisses me off? I think every porn actor/producer/director/distributor, etc. should all die slow painful deaths, wallowing in the sheer misery they've inflicted on the world. Or they should just all get genital warts and a bad case of herpes and some disease that eats their flesh and be forced to live like that forever more. Diseased, disfigured and miserable. Yeah, I think that's a good way to go!!!

Ok, this is long enough and I REALLY must sleep. Gotta babysit and teach tomorrow, AND stay pepped for Amazing Race.

Love to all,


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